I don't wanna sleep...

I wanna live and I feel like if I go to sleep, I may not get back up. Im just tired of feeling this way and nothing seems to make me feel ok. Temporarily, Im happy and positive and get what I need to done, but right about now I'm just over everything. Nothing seems to be a good enough reason to look towards the future anymore. The dream I once had is gone and I don't have the strength to paint a new picture right now.

Ok, Im not going to type too much more. Last bit of the rant is this: I feel so alone and everything I want to do is being done, so how do I hold my own next to someone without seeming like a copy? How can I do me when I'm already being done?

Why can't I sleep? Because I don't wanna sleep, I wanna live.