Maybe I'm doing too much

Its times like these that make me remember why I stayed to myself before.

I'm really trying to figure out some things. My main question is: why am I so different? I can't seem to see eye-to-eye nor make people understand where I'm coming from. I feel like I can't win. I really want to speak, be heard and be understood.

I feel like I'm the last of a dying breed. My friends should know me, and for the most part they do. Sometimes I feel like people closer just don't truly get me. I'm not translating correctly. I'm logical, fair, not overbearing, but protective.

Do you ever think that you don't ask for too much, but then randomly alot happens? I feel like crying right now. I'm being overwhelmed with emotions. I'm confused as to why certain things continue to happen and I'm supposed to just deal with it. "well, I guess you just gotta deal with it." Those were the words used. I'm upset at the fact that "I" have to endure so much in a "we" situation.

I hope I'm not losing myself.. It's happening too fast and it's all wrong. People really don't see how their past can factor into their present or futures.

Thanks blog. I'm glad you are always here to listen, uninterrupting and unmoved.


-- Post From My iPhone

You Know What I Find Funny...

I find it hilarious that I can't seem to say how I feel and when I finally can, I say entirely too much. Instead of saying just how I feel in a particular moment, how I felt about someone or something in the past comes up as well.

I also listen more than I speak, it just so happens that when I speak not everything being said is important, just bits and pieces are.

The funniest thing just so happens to be me, because I'm a funny person.

I contradict myself in some very imaginable ways. I'm very guarded even though I try to be as open as possible. That has to be the biggest laugh.

Anyway, later.

-- Post From My iPhone

"Why Do You Love Me?"

Tonight you asked me why I love you. I love you because the way you make me feel. You support me in everything, you're honest, funny, smart and inquisitive. Though at times your honesty may be a little harsh, I know you are being open with me and ultimately you mean well. When we kissed, I felt like the luckiest guy in the world. The cheesy moments we have together are only between us.

Asking me why I love you offended me, It made me feel like my actions aren't enough and honestly they aren't. Another reason I deleted my Twitter was because I felt like it was distracting. Having a long distance relationship is hard enough, so I just want to make sure I'm focused on being with you.

Looking at the pics of us together only makes me more excited about the future. I can't wait to be with you again, kissing you, walking down the street with you and just being close to you.

I love you.


-- Post From My iPhone

Untitled...

It's hard for me to title these because I never know what I'm about to say.

Anyway, life is really good. I still can't figure ppl out, but I stopped trying to figure them out a long time ago.

I'm beginning to notice more and more that it's hard for ppl to accept responsibility. You would think ppl could admit to their mistakes, own up and move on, but like everything else, it's easier said than done!

Instead of summing things up, I'll add two cents a day.

Ta ta.


-- Post From My iPhone