People Come and Go

I will never understand how you can know someone for so long and think you have them somewhat figured out. We are all complex, emotional beings and that's what makes us so unpredictable.

Things can be great and then abruptly come to a halt. When it comes to friendships, I used to be pretty confident that I'm a damn good friend and I keep those around, but I've been questioning lately if that truly is the case.

I thank god for every encounter I've had, because each person is an experience. It's just shocking how people come and go. All you can do is let them go and let them be. My efforts have not been reciprocated, so maybe it really isn't meant to be.

It's definitely okay though, I'm still working on other chapters of my book as this one closes. I'm always excited about starting new chapters as well.

Maybe I should get a new number and see who notices.
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-- Post From My iPhone

Let go of: Foolishness

It's summertime. It's hot outside, people get in heat and get a little attention and act out.

For those that act crazy, then act like nothing is wrong, they do that because it's their norm. I hope and pray that one day they'll change.

As for all of this foolishness, it's being let go of.
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"Smile not to put on a show for others, but to feel the happiness as you put forth the effort"

-- Post From My iPhone

The reason...

The reason people act a certain way is because of the experiences they've had. I've experienced a lot of people being wishy-washy in my life so I act like I don't care when deep down I do. I act like I don't care because in the past when I cared it meant nothing so I count the option of caring out now.

The reason I think so much is because I know plenty of people that speak before they think and I've learned that sometimes acting on your impulses isn't the best option for everyone.

The reason I feel that I won't have a great relationship with anyone is because people don't know what they want. I know 30yr old men that have told me they still aren't sure what their ideal partner would be like.

Through other peoples hurt, pain, joy, laughter, complacentcy, etc as well as my own, I have built my own wall of reason as to why I act the way I act. Until you've talked to someone or experienced them long enough to know why they do some of the things they do, you may not surely know where certain things are coming from inside of them.

Most importantly, the reason for this blog is clarity. It is becoming clearer and clearer to me we are all misunderstood and that is why things happen, good and bad. It's confusing but in the end it all make sense to me.

When I do something and you don't understand it, ask me and I'll gladly tell you.
I'm an open book.


-- Post From My iPhone

I Used To...

Dear Lord,

I used
to act, be creative and be free-spirited. Something is missing. There is a part of me that is either gone or surpressed and I need to find it or release if.

I miss acting and taking pictures and writing music. I really need to get my life together, change scenery and get back into the swing of things.

As always, thanks for giving me the strength and power of realization.

Thanks Lord
Love Assante


-- Post From My iPhone

You're Overreacting.

Do you ever feel like overreacting could truly just be your natural reaction to something? Through it, you sometimes discover things about yourself and sometimes others. I feel like by keeping things to myself I'm can calm the storm or make them go away. It's funny because imploding can be more hurtful than just saying what I meant at a given moment.

My problem is this: whenever I try to make change, I feel unsupported or ridiculed in my endeavors, but let someone else tell it, it becomes gospel.

This past week has been pretty aggravating yet I've remained thinking positively. Despite being ignored, shaded, copied and other miscellanous activity, I've kept my emotions at bay and managed to make things happen for myself.

So what if my implosion is my overreaction?
This should be interesting.


-- Post From My iPhone

Make This Moment Last

I woke up sore and feeling terrible (I blame Krystals) but I got up and I'm feeling great! I'm about to go slave for a few hours and then go home and mentally prepare for tomorrow.

I really can't wait for this New York trip. Hopefully, I'll have these auditions when I get there and maybe some interviews. I am just too excited! Looking forward to these journeys I have seems to keep me going. It may be draining to work as much as I do, but my hardwork always pays off.

It's moments like these I want to make last forever.

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PS - Jason, do u still read these? Rep yo set, lol